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The Shift

Nov 28, 2005 Print This Post

//MOOD: Pretty Dang Good

//ITUNES: Miserable by Lit

If you were around Riv this weekend, you heard me talk about what a sucky month I have. It was kinda a weird weekend. At the end of the service, I was planning on leading everyone in praying for things we are thankful for and repenting of our sin.

But I didn’t want to do either. Not even close.

At the 6ish service Saturday, I confessed this to the group there and said something like “these are the times when we should do this anyway.” It was kinda half-hearted and more an intellectual measure than anything else. So I prayed and I really tried to be thankful. Then, I really tried to confess sins going on in my life, although I didn’t feel like it.

At the 8ish service, I began to warm up. When I prayed, I was really starting to be thankful. And when I prayed for the sins in my life, I really meant it.

Sunday, I woke up in the best mood I have been in in a long time.

By the end of the 3 Sunday services, I was praying with an authentic heart. And I felt like so much pressure had been lifted off of me. It made me think about the fact that sometimes, we need to go through the motions and God will connect with us where we are. I am not saying we fake it, that’s why it was important for me to admit where I was. But at the same time, I need to believe that God will meet me and help move me to where I need to me. He did that this weekend.

Then, I spoke this morning at Spring Arbor and things seemed to connect. I had lunch with my friend JVo and reflected with him on this whole thing. It’s amazing when what you believe to be true reveals itself as really being true. Know what I mean?